[That is the voice of a man who isn't anywhere in the vicinity of
fine, but Tris knows she can't make someone open up.]
I'll decide if you truly want me to.
If you'd like some time without anyone new underfoot, though, you can take
it, and we'll just hope the Admiral doesn't reclaim the key in the
meanwhile.
I'm going to ask, then. If we get any volunteers, I'll make certain it's
someone who won't try to order you and Teddy about. You're fully capable
of running that kitchen, and you shouldn't have to defer to anyone in it.
Though I can't promise when Teddy will come back to work, either. He's the
one who killed me. I'm not sure what happened to him, but something's
wrong.
But considering I've lost control and hurt someone I didn't want to in the
past, I think I owe him the benefit of the doubt until I know why he did it.
Yes, though my teacher didn't find me until after my family disowned me
because they were afraid of me. I'm still more grateful for it than I can
say. Not everyone is so fortunate.
If Erskine ever graduates, my deal has to do with people who fall through
the cracks. Who don't get the training they need to learn control and hold
themselves together.
So you got a glimpse of what you should have had. There's no changing the
past without changing who you are, but it's hard having your face
shoved into the possibilities of how things could have turned out
differently. I'm sorry, Credence.
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Date: 2018-07-27 10:50 am (UTC)[That is the voice of a man who isn't anywhere in the vicinity of fine, but Tris knows she can't make someone open up.]
I'll decide if you truly want me to.
If you'd like some time without anyone new underfoot, though, you can take it, and we'll just hope the Admiral doesn't reclaim the key in the meanwhile.
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Date: 2018-07-27 10:53 am (UTC)I don't mind either way. If you find someone else to take the job today, or - it's fine.
It's fine.
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:13 am (UTC)I'm going to ask, then. If we get any volunteers, I'll make certain it's someone who won't try to order you and Teddy about. You're fully capable of running that kitchen, and you shouldn't have to defer to anyone in it.
Though I can't promise when Teddy will come back to work, either. He's the one who killed me. I'm not sure what happened to him, but something's wrong.
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:17 am (UTC)Why did he kill you?
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:22 am (UTC)He was impersonating someone else, and I got suspicious. He shot me when I asked too many questions. I don't even know if he recognized me.
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:30 am (UTC)[A pause, then:]
I'm sorry that happened to you.
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:33 am (UTC)Thank you, Credence.
The death toll only lasts a week. I'll be alright. I'm more concerned about Teddy; the man I know wouldn't have harmed me.
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Date: 2018-07-27 11:55 am (UTC)Maybe he isn't really who you thought he was.
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Date: 2018-07-27 12:06 pm (UTC)Maybe. I've been wrong before.
But considering I've lost control and hurt someone I didn't want to in the past, I think I owe him the benefit of the doubt until I know why he did it.
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Date: 2018-07-27 12:12 pm (UTC)...Yes. I've done that too.
[Not as often or even as unintentionally as some people seem to think, but he has.]
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Date: 2018-07-27 01:57 pm (UTC)Carrying around a large amount of power always makes it easier to do. [Which doesn't apply to Teddy, but definitely does to her and to Credence.]
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:29 pm (UTC)Yes.
Were you - born, with power?
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:30 pm (UTC)I was. I had no control of it when I was young.
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:33 pm (UTC)But someone taught you?
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:41 pm (UTC)Yes, though my teacher didn't find me until after my family disowned me because they were afraid of me. I'm still more grateful for it than I can say. Not everyone is so fortunate.
If Erskine ever graduates, my deal has to do with people who fall through the cracks. Who don't get the training they need to learn control and hold themselves together.
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:44 pm (UTC)People like me, I guess. I never went to school.
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:54 pm (UTC)Was the world we were in during the breach yours?
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Date: 2018-07-27 02:56 pm (UTC)[A long pause.]
...Yes.
About - ninety years in my future. I was never meant to go to Hogwarts, but there's another school in America.
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Date: 2018-08-02 04:53 pm (UTC)Ah.
So you got a glimpse of what you should have had. There's no changing the past without changing who you are, but it's hard having your face shoved into the possibilities of how things could have turned out differently. I'm sorry, Credence.
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Date: 2018-08-02 04:57 pm (UTC)